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Weekly Reflection No. 5 - Going dark

After a couple of very dark days last week, I have decided to press pause on dating for the foreseeable future. I find myself at a particular low point in my life right now, and it’s hard for me to talk about myself on dates without feeling like the biggest loser they’ve ever met. Dating in LA also requires a LOT of driving, and I’d rather spend that time and energy on landscaping my mom’s yard, unblocking 33 years of limiting beliefs, exercising, and figuring out how to earn a living without wanting to die. All that being said, the mental health benefits of this decision are yet to be determined. I have approximately 3 friends in LA, whom I rarely see, so dating was my one social outlet. We’ll see how long I last!

Final updates for the time being:

• I paused my Feeld and Hinge profiles.

• I told the 46-year-old I wasn’t interested in seeing him again because of our age difference. He took it graciously and left me with some nice compliments.

• I told the Architect that I’m depressed and am taking a break from dating. He was very sweet, and it’s possible we’ll see each other again.

• I had already agreed to meet the Biologist when I made my ‘No Dating’ decision, so we got coffee last Saturday. It was brief but nice. I didn’t tell him I’m taking a dating break, but I also don’t know if I’ll see him again, so I’ll cross that bridge later.

• I cancelled a first date an hour before we were supposed to meet on Friday and it felt GREAT!

These weekly updates were a fun experiment, but we will now return to our irregularly scheduled programming.

XOXO